JUST TRUST.
I stared up at the stars tonight.
Three comets flew across the sky, and I said aloud to God that I am listening.
What I felt in return after a few minutes
JUST TRUST.
Then, several minutes later, I repeated:
I TRUST.
It’s been such a challenging ten years. Challenging in multiple directions. I’ve significantly lost my ability and natural tendency to trust!
Andy, my new friend and realtor, interviewed me last night for a documentary they are putting together about the house.
He asked a community question about what we are leaving behind and what we have to say about this transition, and leaving all that we learned here.
I’m not sure what he is getting at. His inquiry has been on my mind for 24 hours, and my answer is vague and obscure.
Perhaps it’s too soon to know what I learned from all of this. Business certainly has beaten me up. The answer seems to be that I lack focus. I am unable to see in one direction. I seem to crave understanding it all. Yet, know that this craving only makes my life more complex, more chaotic, and in turn takes me away from what I want most, true community. To build and maintain TRUST. Trust that the relationships, feelings, emotions, and time spent creating something... will be here tomorrow.
Interesting... I suppose my life path is the way it is - call it karma - because I’m here to learn how to not give all I have away but rather learn to find inner peace, silence, and meaning inside rather than through a chaotic search for meaning.
Opening locations in multiple states didn’t make me happier. It didn’t offer Emily and me any great insights into the world. However, it did teach us a great deal about how business functions -- mainly for the worst, unfortunately.
In another direction, where I am now, is different. The tools and way of living that I feel inside have shifted significantly. I feel isolated in a way that is freeing yet heavy all at the same time. It’s a paradox.
A few related, inspiring videos:
The SOUL You SILENCED… Is Still WAITING | Carl Jung
Why You Have NO MOTIVATION After Spiritual Awakening - Carl Jung Explains
PHOTO ABOVE: NASA, ESA, S. Beckwith (STScI), and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScI/AURA)